Is my life getting better?

I'm not sure. -_-

I didn't make any plans when I started my salary man life. Life was going through with some luck, serendipity, and pains. I didn't enjoy the pain but looked for something good. And almost one decade passed.

Now I stood here as a student, politically weak creature. I decided to focus on study even if it hurts me.

Am I right? Do I make a good decision for the future? Is there anybody who can say "alright, you make a good decision. You are OK"?

Everyday insomnia undermine me or I ruined myself.

I want someone to say "you are OK".